Another thought
It is four am
How many hours left
Until I have to make myself face a day again

I think about yesterday
I think about tomorrow
I think about the future
All I think about is sorrow

So I wish for a little luck
For a love that
Shares my trust
For a key to let me in

There is no end
When will this end
You are not my friend
You are in my head

…and you are my only friend

So I shatter into glass
I am such a mess
I can never rest
All of my dreams end abruptly
And I wake up in a pool of stress

I will not ever hate
I will be gracious
I want to live
I want to see
I need to feel
I need to taste

It is a real disease
And it is of my brain

Shh
I can make it back
It is not too late
I am resilient and determined
Just wait

I will love again
Someone
Will know my name

Breathe
It is okay
We are all just a person
We all feel just the same

I need to dissipate this negativity
I cannot wake up in fear of the rain
I am thinking

Way

Too

Fast

Again

Thank God
Those were the answers I think I once sought
But I really have to say I could do without all of this thought

Just write it out
Just write straight up
From negative to positive
And
Do
Not
Ever
Stop

The opposite of what you did to bury yourself under this rock

I hope I can be a better friend
I wish I could trust myself again
I hope this first good day never ends

I pray for silence in the bed I lay
I wish one person would understand me

I have trust in us all
That we will
Get up
After this fall

And that you too feel the same
I pray every night with the space for our names

I know that with each day
We will add another
To the brave.

 

 

~Thank you.  Sending love and peace to you if you feel like you are alone or are suffering in any way.  You will get through this.

Sincerely,

Joe

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